"Yesterday..."

"Why she had to go
 I don't know, she wouldn't say.."
                      Lennon-McCartney


My 'Yesterday' was about Laura...


I think when we are "let go," there is a great deal of soul searching that goes on... Most of us are probably very "passive" dumpees...

I had some things of hers that I needed to get back to her... get it out of my house... they did nothing but generate sad feelings for me... so I boxed them up yesterday... and left them at her house...

But I felt I needed to do something for MY 'goodbye'... so what I did... was to give her back the photo of us that she had given me just  before she decided she didn't want/need me...  


Nothing really great in the scheme of "I got you back!!" kind of stuff... but it was effective for me in closing that door... I felt that I now had an active role in ending it as well... ending it for me, that is...

Someday she will contact me... I know her too well...   She will become another "Robin".... who called last night by the way... and I didn't answer the phone...   

I think that there's this whole category of people out there... those 'energy vampires'... those people who need someone else to talk to and to drain the energy from...  (damn... there are some SEXY images out there when googling for 'vampires!!  This is NOT one of them!!!)


I want to be a "bad boy"... but I don't think I have the balls for it...  HAR!!!!!


I suppose I am better today...


~shoes~