Perceptions

When I was a senior in high school, our class had a research paper that was required for successful completion of the course.  While looking for some piece of information, I found a quote... that moved me... a seventeen year old goofball being moved by a quote?


Imagine that...  it said...


"Respect the silent, for still waters run deep."


I wrote that down on a note card and taped it to my bedroom mirror so I would see it everyday.  Even then, I guess I felt I was different... in that there was more to Life than what I was seeing first hand...


I don't think that I became conscious of actually searching for a greater definition of Life until "The Great Train Wreck of 1996."  Once I started journaling and looking at things in greater detail did I realize that I was on some kind of journey... or a quest for some kind of Discovery... even my trip to Monument Valley was about something I needed to learn...


I remember sitting outside one morning with Jan... one of my relationship Train Wrecks...  we were drinking coffee and I was journaling...


She asked me what I was writing... 


I told her that I had written two statements... and was thinking about them...


The two statements were:

• Life is Easy... I make it more difficult than is necessary...

• Life is Difficult... I tend to over-simplify it...

Jan tells me that the two statements were polar opposites of each other... I told her that I knew that... those were two statements though... that I wanted to express... and then write about them... and see which I felt was most true for me...

Kind of like when Laura... after all of the positive signs I felt she had given regarding our relationship, she comes out of left field with the statement that she doesn't love me and doesn't want to see me anymore.

I imagine that in her perspective, she simplified her Life...

I think Life is easier when we have to make difficult decisions...  and that Life becomes more difficult when we put off making difficult decisions...

I read a blog this morning... and the nature of this person's post got me to thinking about that journal entry...

I have some work to do...