Steenkin' New Year's Resolutions...
Happy New Year to all of you...
I can't believe that
2015
is gone.
Time keeps on slippin', slippin', slippin'...
Into the future...
What is it about the past that we each remember so?
Are the memories of good and wonderful things?
... or do we remain haunted by what went amiss?
... things that just didn't turn out the way we wanted?
Is there some form of 'Pre-destination'
that we follow through Life???
Or, are our Lives and our ultimate ends/destinations
more determined by Karma??
Are the events that we experience directly related
to how we have lived our lives and treated others?
Is there really a difference between the two?
I wonder why I selected 'Calvin and Hobbes'cartoons for a post that asks rather serious questions?
What makes a good cartoon be a 'good cartoon?'
I always have enjoyed the messages from comic strips like 'Calvin and Hobbes,' or 'The Far Side'... Some of the creators of such strips have such a wonderful insight into the psyches of our souls, it seems. They seem to capture those fleeting moments and thoughts that we have all experienced...
A counselor that I was seeing after the death of my Dad and during my divorce suggested that I hide a great deal of hurt and pain behind humor... I do suppose that there is a great deal of truth to such a statement.
I fear that my direction has been determined
by the method indicated in the cartoon above...
... that I have just let things happen and I've drifted along with the flow.
Like clouds in the sky...
Like a limb in the river...
Like a fart in a whirl wind...
2016 is going to be a year of change for me.
I will teach one more year.
And then what?
I have no idea.
I have no idea.
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2015 was a bizarre year for me...
On September 13,
I fell off a ladder while painting my hallway at home,
and suffered one Hell of a concussion.
I wrote about this HERE.
On September 14,
we had a shooting on campus that received national
news coverage.
I wrote about this event HERE.
The fall/concussion has been life-changing for me.
I am more irritable... I am more cranky.
My head hurts constantly, it seems.
Somedays are better than others...
and then some days are Hell.
My performance in the classroom suffered this year...
I put a formula on the board one day...
the mid-point formula for calculating
the coefficient of elasticity for demand...
... and when I stepped away to discuss/explain the formula,
I turned to start explaining the way the formula was constructed...
and it made absolutely no sense to me.
I had no idea what it was I was seeing.I kept waiting
for it to make sense but it just wouldn't come into order.
I also have what I call a 'silent stutter' from time to time...
I will be talking and I suddenly just stop...
and it's like I've hit a 'pause' button...
... and then it starts back again...
One night, I was at the kitchen sink... and became ill...
what a great place to get sick to my stomach...
I mean there was a garbage disposal.
... but the next thing I know, I am coming to while lying
flat on my back on the kitchen floor.
I have no idea when I passed out, or falling... or hitting the floor.
I had worried about what if my head hit the floor again?
Ugh...
CT-scans tend to show everything is 'ok'...
but as the doctor told me, just because the scans
are coming back ok, it doesn't mean that there isn't a problem.
On a non-personal note,
my son, who recently moved to New Orleans,
was walking home from work a couple of days after Christmas...
had a couple of thugs come up behind him...
put a pistol to his head... and rob him at gunpoint.
Crime is out of control in New Orleans...
I'm so fortunate they didn't shoot my son.
I don't know what I would have done...
So... what's ahead for us in
2016?
I love these guys...
Happy New Year!!!
~shoes~
I hope you're seeing neurologist and that you're going to have a better year in 2016.
ReplyDeleteAnd glad your son survived his encounter with the shitbags who robbed him.
Please take care of yourself.
:)
Shoes...missed ya buddy. God, what a nightmare of a year. Glad your son is OK, that's horrible. Look, you need to just make sure you are alright, everything else is just background noise compared to your health and well being. I hope that you start to feel better or at least have enough tests to eliminate anything and everything. The stress on top isn't gonna help. As for resolutions, just stay as awesome as you are - that's what I'm doing along with winging it . Big hugs.
ReplyDeleteGlad to see your post... I am sure what your doctor said did not put u at ease..another thing to worry about, eh? As far as 2016, more people I talk to don't have any real positive thoughts... too many awful things happened last year, that's the problem.
ReplyDeleteSo glad your son was not hurt worse... Crime- we're going to hell in a handbasket for sure
Friend! I just want to give you a huge hug! It's been quite the year for you eh? I'm so glad your son was not physically harmed. The entire world is out of control. God help us all. May this be the worse you ever know and may 2016 bring you peace, love and rock and roll -just kidding, but it sounded great. May 2016 bring you an abundance of blessings, love and laughter! :)
ReplyDeleteOMG Jim, I am so glad your son wasn't hurt but that's so scary. Is he coping with it ok? I know as a parent you aren't because I would be so freakin worried now. You have had a rough year and I hope you pursue your health issues. I believe we are here to learn lessons and that we chose this life. Iknow that sounds nuts but it's what I believe. I've been told I have a very old soul and that I've been around for a long time. Who knows. Doesn't help in the day to day crap does it? LOL. Take care of YOU and hope 2016 is much better. Hugs! XX
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