I wanna be like Tyler Durden... I'm tired of being the "nice guy"... Was I born this way or is it another cruel Life Joke?
Libby texted me tonight... what is it with these women from the past that have told me to go away... and then they call/text/email me...???
There is a married woman out at Alluvial Flood Plains University that has almost been stalking me... I am not interested in her for a host of reasons... this shit nonsense has been going on almost four years now... I've told her several times if she didn't leave me alone, I was going to tell her cop husband... It tends to be a short-term fix...
Bathwater has a post here about a telephone conversation with his Dad... and the realization that things are changing with his parents... After reading and commenting, I got to dwelling on my own family nonsense...
I have a sister old enough to be my Mother... it pisses her off when people tell her that they saw her out eating dinner with her son... This is the sister that stole got a large sum of money from my Dad's estate after he died... I take her to dinner from time to time because I feel sorry for her...
Not long ago, we were out at dinner... and she started playing with her hands... and bowed her head... and started talking... and she told me...
"I have this brother that is a professor out at Alluvial Flood Plains State University... he takes me to dinner from time to time... I don't know what I would do without him..."
... then she stopped playing with her hands... she raised her head... and continued our previous conversation... I don't know if she had a TIA (kind of a mini-stroke) or what...
She has had a host of medical issues in the past year... some of them have even been real... but being the spineless fucking no-good-idiot nice guy that I am, I look after her... take her to her doctor appointments... stuff like that...
We are having real budgetary issues here in Mississippi... funding for education is being cut at all levels... K-12, Community Colleges, and State Universities... There are all kinds of layoffs of employees going on at the different levels of education... I had a note on my office door when I returned from an afternoon class telling me that I needed to see my division chair ASAP... I thought... "fuck... here it comes..."
Well... it wasn't what I feared... so I won one of the battles today... so it seems...
Valentine's Day is right around the corner... My Dad will have had his stroke 14 years ago this Valentine's Day... He died 8 days later... I wish I had been a more forgiving son for my Dad...
I need to go to bed...
~shoes~
You are a nice guy and there is nothing wrong with nice guys!! I have no doubt that one day, you'll receive all you've given.
ReplyDeleteWe'll be around for you on Valentine's day.
:)
Every holiday, no matter how minor is a time for remembering.
ReplyDeleteI don't think of Valentine's day as a time for remembering but my friend Alexis likes to remind me it was the day I wand up in the county ward. I did realize. She remembers. Guess they don't emphasis such things when you are on the inside :).
ReplyDeleteEvery blog I read today is so emotive. I've been saddened beyond words, overjoyed and turned on.
ReplyDeleteHere I am feeling so overwhelmed...I just want to give you a hug.
Hello her husband is a cop need I say more...He is probably cheating on her...(I used to be married to a cop)
ReplyDeleteHey guess what? I stopped at the College yesterday and gave Bobby Newien a hug...and a hug thank you..He had a big smile on his face!!!
kisses shoes.... don't be so hard on yourself, K??
ReplyDeleteThank you... everyone...
ReplyDeleteI am too hard on myself... I try too hard to be someone for everyone but myself... That was the problem with Dad dying and his death... I was helping my brothers and sisters understand what was going on... and thinking that I was ok... and I wasn't... I guess the person that I relied upon the most to be there for my... my future ex wife... was the greatest disappointment...
And so it goes...
Thank you all for your thoughts and input...
jim