This is how I feel today...
I have a microeconomics class that begins on Thursday... plus I am chair of the College of Business Scholarship Committee... so I have a host of work to get done...
It's no longer a secret here around Alluvial Flood Plain State University that my major has been marked for elimination...
... and everyone is being WAY too fucking nice to me...
It's the 'walk up to shoes and hug him' and ask him how his weekend was...'
or...
'Hey Shoes... how are YOU doing???'
There is extra stress in the syllables... extra holding in the hugs... kinda like what you would expect to receive if you had some terminal illness...
It tends to make one feel a little... singled out...
It's almost the way you see people exchange pleasantries at funerals...
I saw one of the university administrators at lunch time... normally she doesn't give much of anyone the time of day... when she greeted me, people stopped and looked to see who the recipient of such an accolade...
Or a colleague that told me that I look like I had lost 30 pounds... so what was he saying? That I've been that much over weight? Bastard!! But I have lost weight... so maybe I shouldn't be quite so hard on him...
I did receive my employment contract for the up-coming academic year... it wasn't marked 'terminal' (and it DOES have THAT meaning)... but my chair told me that the administration could still send out letters as late as September 1 informing us that our contracts are terminal and, therefore, not renewable for the next academic year...
But... you know what? It's OK...
Damn... I must not have received THIS issue of 'The Economist'...
I SURELY would have remembered THAT cover...
Surely, I'm just paranoid... no??
Paranoid? Me??
I mean... I wouldn't do ANYTHING that would cause me to stand out!!!
I really have been on a tear lately... no?
Love...
~shoes~
Hang in there Shoes! Don't let those asshates get you down.
ReplyDeleteGo back and see where you wrote "HARD ON"
ReplyDelete:->
xoxox
ReplyDeleteNeed to let out some aggression ? Come to HBAG, baby !!
ReplyDeletelol, no, your not too paranoid! I HOPE it doesnt happen. Fingers and toes crossed!!
ReplyDeleteyikes - here's hoping that the paranoia's unfounded!
ReplyDeletei know it's hard - but stop worrying about the job for a little while. you have more important things to concern yourself with... like how the hell to make econ interesting for a new set of victims...um, students...come thursday. ;)
ReplyDeleteMicroeconomics?!?!?
ReplyDeleteIs that cooking/sewing/cleaning and baking for really short people or something?
Oh, wait!
That's MicroHOMEeconomics.
I took that.
Only the one that would let geeky tall women in. Still the mini-brwonies are awesome! Carry on...
Brownies, that is. See how awesome?
ReplyDeleteI guess you need to feel comfortable with it. I worked for a company in Chapter 11 and corporate protection for almost a year. I watch everyone else leave or get let go. I was one of the last men standing.
ReplyDeleteWorked for me.
Aww, poor Shoesies ! You need a blow job, that's what you need.
ReplyDeleteIf I were you I would start negotiating with your hot female students that need your class to graduate, or at least your class is their last.
How bad do they want to get their diploma ?
I mean, what could they possibly do.... let you go ?
Good thing I don't give courses in ethics.....
Sorry to hear it. Hopefully you have gotten some bad vibes that won't materialize. Not fun feeling like you are on the chopping block though. That ride is sounding better and better!
ReplyDeleteDoes this mean you have to start wearing brown and gray clothing and put away the red shoes? Oh no, don't say that. I'm gonna cry.
ReplyDelete@ Wishing On A Star... I'm a-hanging... I just fear that in the long run, the ass hats are going to win!!! Did you guys make it down to Juke Joint Fest this past April??
ReplyDelete@ Kurt... I looked but I couldn't find it!!! hahahaha...
@ Beryl... thank you, sweets...
@ Heff... yeah... I need a great and relaxing time at HGAG....!!! Do you really own one!?! That would be so cool!
@ PeeDee... the works are in the process for it to happen... I've put so much time and effort into this position... and my students... I hate that my career here seems to be ending in this manner... how sad... but everything will be ok! :o)
@ Magnolia... I know, thanks... I just wish that everyone would treat me the way they used to... maybe with a bit of disdain... ;o) hahaha
@ Jaime... I am getting the trap set even now for them as I type this!! I SO love the classroom... and micro econ is so much fun to teach, I think... :o)
@ Linnn... Yes, that is IT!!! Have you taken my class?!?! :oD I don't buy for a second that you are tall and geeky... ;o) Nothing wrong with a tall woman at all... :oD Brownies??? Yum!
@ Bathwater... yeah, that's exactly what I think I am doing... trying to get myself used to the idea that this freight train is a-comin'... so it doesn't surprise me too much when it does pull into the station...
@ Senorita... LOL @ your suggestion! Yes, that's exactly what I need!!! Yeah, I could get fired for that... even more quickly than I can for what is in the works now... Now, I wont say that HASN'T happened after some of them have graduated... ;o)
@ Just Another Girl... I'm ready! let's GO!! Have you got the new car yet?!?! :oD
@ Charlene... those red shoes aren't going ANYWHERE!!! :oD
~shoes~
The entire situation just sucks.
ReplyDeleteAnd not in a good way.
I'm sorry. I've been through this same thing with family members who are in education.....
@ Big Pissy... hey you... yeah, it does suck... When we are drawn to teaching, we give up quite a few $$$ to begin with... and then seem to be the first to hit the chopping block before the high $$ administrators go...I trust all is well your way...
ReplyDelete~shoes~