Scooter...
(TOO serious...)
Dear Larry...
A week has come and gone since I received the first text message that things were amiss with you and your well being. Your sister kept me posted and up-to-date on things that were happening... how things were progressing.
After having received the first message, I was prepared to pack a bag and be on my way down to be there with you... Your family (sister) said it wasn't necessary, that you didn't want company.
I understood that and respected that...
As the week wore on, I decided that I would come down and see you anyway... you are my pal... friends do things like this. I wanted you to know... I needed you to know that I have valued you and your friendship this much... and our friend, Jerry, made the trip with me...
Never mind that you caused me to un-friend you FOUR times on Facebook...
At times you could be SUCH a dick!!!
Scooter
(More Like The One I Knew At Work...)
... like the time you were so mean-spirited at Lunch, that I had no other choice but to get up and walk out... You could have such a sharp tongue, and be so mean-spirited with your comments, although you possibly/probably didn't quite mean them that way.
... like the time you corrected a nurse who said she would relay some of your questions to the doctor... and you were quick to point out that you were also a doctor...
Someone had written your name on a dry-erase board in your hospital room, and you managed the energy and strength to get up, walk to the board, and write 'Dr.' before your name.
But you were also the funny guy who announced to a group of us that you could moonwalk like Michael Jackson...
... and of course you couldn't...
... or the time you told us... insisted to us...
that you looked like Brad Pitt....
... which of course, you didn't...
But... I am glad that we were able to come down and see you...
I hope that you heard and recognized my voice... when I first got there... and I leaned over and announced in your ear... that 'some people will do ANYTHING to get out of work...'
I think you heard Jerry when he told you that we were going to break you out and take you to Bourbon Street... and find you a whore... I think you heard that because you actually strung together a few coherent words... something along the line of...
"... that would be fun..."
... the way you seemed to turn your head towards me when I called you, "Scooter"...
I am sure you didn't hear me when I had to go outside from time to time to cry...
I'm not ashamed or embarrassed to cry... I just didn't want you to hear it...
But my heart is so broken...
I miss you so... and will miss you even more so as time passes...
(how I will always remember you...)
I will remember that day you came up with that brilliant observation...
"No one gets to choose his own nickname!"
... and then you set out to disprove it by coming up with names that you always wanted us to call you. Instead of those 'power names' you wanted, we opted for names such as 'Mageever,'... or 'Scooter,'... or 'Lars'...
I hope you were able to recognize my voice... and understand my message... when I said those last words to you before I left...
"I love you, buddy..."
~Octopus Prime~
(one of his nicknames he had for me...)
P.S.
I'll be damned..
Upon further reflection,
you DO look like Brad Pitt!!!
P.S.
I'll be damned..
Upon further reflection,
you DO look like Brad Pitt!!!
Sounds like your friend Scooter was all sorts of fun.
ReplyDeleteAnd even though you don't need it, wishing you memories that make you laugh out loud.
Hi, Sharon... the laughter will come... eventually, but not now.
ReplyDeleteI wish he could have had one of those events, where he is just 'gone'... no lingering... no waiting... none of those drug-induced moments where his hands shake... and mumbled syllables...
Instead, he is just 'gone'... to wherever it is we go when we die...
Scooter was a good guy... he could be a jerk, just like any of us, yet he had this funny innocent side, that maybe some of us still retain...
Thank you, Sandra, for the kindness you have extended to me.
namasté
~shoes~
What am absolutely beautiful story of ur friendship. We always hope for someone to love us as u love ur friend.
ReplyDeleteThis is hard I know. I am walking a similar journey.
This one tugs at the heart.
Thoughts and prayers for u and for ur friend, Larry. May God watch over him and take him home peacefully.
Hi, Stormy... I don't let people too close to me too easily... So, once someone is "in," I am not quick to discard him/her either...
DeleteIn the long run, Scooter is going to be ok...
~shoes~
You did the right thing going to see him, Shoes :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful piece.
Good morning, Ms Jules...
DeleteThank you so... Yes, I did the right thing by going down to see him... as painful as it was for me, he is the one that is taking that journey...
~shoes~
I agree with those that commented before.. this is a true testament to your love for this man. Despite the pain you are in now.. I hope that is soon replaced with smiles and joy whenever you think of him.
ReplyDeleteHugs!
Hey you...
DeleteYour comment reminded me of a passage from another book that I read from at another friend's memorial service a few years ago...
... and it went something along this line...
When someone dies, the hurt and pain we feel is because they took a part of us with them when they left... and some day ahead, we will think of them and laugh... or smile... and we discover that they left a piece of themselves with us when they left...
That does kinda help a bit...
How are you?
~shoes~
I like that passage... I copied it, I know it will come in handy some day.
DeleteMe? doing ok... no complaints.. good health.. good kids... a roof over my head and job that pays the bills. what more could I need? :)
I love that passage as well... Very meaningful to me... I will use it again when the time is right...
DeleteAll in all, you sound like you are doing well...
~shoes~
i am glad u did what u did in the end.. I am sure your friend would want u to have a cadillac Margarita on him..
ReplyDeleteHi there, Chris... and a cadillac margarita it shall be...
DeleteI've done everything the way in which I felt it should have been done. I have no regrets about my pal..
It will all be ok in the long run...
~shoes~
So hard to say goodbye.
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))
Hi there, Ms Ami... yes it is...
DeleteBut it will be ok... he is going to be fine...
~shoes~
A warm and loving tribute to someone you obviously care about very much. He sounds like quite a character.
ReplyDeleteHi there, Stephen.. he WAS a character... my buddy, Scooter, died this morning at about 11:45 AM...
DeleteGod Speed, Scooter...
~shoes~
Your letter made me happy and sad. I laughed out loud at the Facebook comment (four times???). And getting up and walking out in a restaurant. Shoes, you crack me up. There have been several times in my life I would have liked to get up and walk out, but I always felt like that wasn't the "right" thing to do. But, maybe it is. People need to know when they've crossed over the line.
ReplyDeleteThe amazing thing about Scooter is that in spite of all the things he did wrong, he did enough things right to keep your friendship. That is the glory of love.
I know your heart is breaking right now. Try and comfort yourself with all of the wonderful memories. Living a full life is the best gift we can give to ourselves and others. It sounds like you and Scooter rounded all of those bases. When he gets to The Other Side he can be well pleased with everything he gained from this life experience.
Hugs to you, my friend.
Hi there, Robin... as you know by now, Scooter died this morning...
DeleteHe and I would argue like... well... old men! But I always told him afterwards that he was my buddy... my pal...
It is true, I DID un-friend him four times on FB... he could make me SO angry... but I am sure I did the same to him... HA!!!
But he was my friend...
God Speed, Scooter...
~shoes~
Warm hugs...
ReplyDeletestephanie
Hey you.... thank you, dear...
Delete~shoes~
Scooter sounded like quite a character!
ReplyDeleteHi, Sherry... he was!!
DeleteI will miss him so much, but will enjoy telling Scooter stories for some time!!!
~shoes~
Shoes: I've been there. Don't torture yourself. A friend would not want you do that.
ReplyDeleteGood evening, JJ... My pal died this morning, God Bless him...
ReplyDeleteSince my visit to see him, I had wondered why he just couldn't have had a major event and died instantly...
Where he didn't have to wait...
Thank you for your kind words... you always seem to have the right thing to say and able to put things in propert perspective...
~shoes~