Man... I do NOT know what I did to deserve all of the dreams I had last night... I don't know if it is a carry-over from these hives things that have been kicking my butt the past couple of days... or if its residual from the visitation for a family member of a friend... or what...
Last night, I just had one dream after another of funeral dreams... more specifically, my Dad's funeral... more specifically, the grave side service... I would wake up... get something to drink... and go back to bed... and there would be another one of these dreams in a queue waiting for me when I reached that level of sleep...
The one constant in the dreams... was that every time I started to cry for the emotion of the event... of Dad being buried... something seemed to happen to make me stop mourning... a family member would stand up and start an argument... just an event that would stop the progression of what needed to happen...
In trying to analyze these dreams this morning, I am wondering... that with everything that was going on at that point in time... the death of my Dad... the trouble with brothers and sisters... the troubles with my wife... and the divorce that started up just a few months later... if I really ever did get to mourn his passing... I know that sounds stupid, but as you know, stuff tends to happen in Life that keeps us from moving on in some form or fashion with things that happen...
Maybe it has nothing to do with Dad's death... maybe it has more to do with current things in my Life... things to which I need to recognize an end to... things that I need to put in a box and file away...
I would have preferred that the message manifested itself in some other way, however... appearing to me in the form of Dad's funeral is not the way in which I need to receive such messages...
I don't like this dark side... I don't like these kinds of messages...
And, yes, I have hives today...
Maybe a new guitar would help...
~shoes~
I rarely have good dreams. In my dreams, everyone I love has died at one point or another, and the emotion was so real that when I woke up I had to call the person to make sure they were still alive.
ReplyDeleteI just think you are going through a lot of inner conflict. When that calms down, you will probably have a better time dreaming.
The dreams I remember are always sad or bad too.
ReplyDeleteI stopped trying to analyze them... However, I think that reviving the same event might mean you haven't moved on. (just a theory)
I dream so much you would not even believe it. There are always some bad dreams mixed in, but dreams are just thoughts, and it doesn't mean you have a dark side.
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ReplyDeleteWhen I was a little girl, I taught myself to not get into a deep enough REM to actually remember dreams.
ReplyDeleteI honestly do not know how I did this.
I just know it started at the age of 11 or 12.
I used to have nightmares, so I would sleepwalk into my mother's room, get within about an inch of her face, and then I'd say:
"Wake me up mom. I'm having a bad dream."
Later on, the sleepwalking stopped and so did the nightmares. Now, I just wake myself up before I get to that state where I will remember anything.
Strange fact about myself.
But true.
This reminded me of the book I just finished...Dead bones tell stories
ReplyDelete@ Senorita... yes, I think that there is still a great deal of internal conflict... I need to try to identify it and attack it... resolve it.
ReplyDelete@ Spring Flower... I agree with what you say re: reliving/redreaming the same event has to have some connotation that it has not been resolved...
@ Secretia... I agree... but, is it possible that we all have 'dark sides?'
@ Shelly... I know that in some REALLY bad dreams that I am able to recognize that its a dream and will myself to wake up... I've also read that there is some 'self talk' that one can do before going to bed... that can possibly affect what you dream/don't dream... I need to find that and re-read it...
@ Darn Girl... I would like to read that... is that the name of the book???
~shoes~
Red Shoes, I was once told that the meaning of a dream is more in the emotion than the images. I was then told that, if you feel anxiety for example think of what in yout life makes you feel that way - right now - and that is what the dream is about. I hope soon you have wonderful flights of fancy!
ReplyDeletewhen I worked at the District Attorney's office, I would have MAJOR stress-related dreams...reoccurring, disturbing, etc.
ReplyDeleteOnce I retired, I stopped having them. :-)
I hope you find a resolution soon. :)
I've also been told not eating before one goes to bed will take away bad dreams.
ReplyDeleteWhether there is any truth to that or not, I do not know.
At least your admitting there is an internal dilemma going on. I really do believe awareness is the first step to healing.
I hope you feel better.
i have crazy dreams a lot. but the worst are when i start dreaming my cases. that's when i know i've been working too hard.
ReplyDeleteIf you are waking up with hives and having these disturbing dreams perhaps you need something to help you sleep better through the night (says the man who takes a cocktail of pills in the evening).
ReplyDeleteEither that or try allergy free detergent.
@ Fantasia... I can understand fully what you mean... this dream was so emotional... in that I wanted to cry and mourn... but there was always a distraction... so that I couldn't reach that euphoria that one experiences after a "good cry"... God, does that sound like something you would expect a man to say???
ReplyDelete@ Pissy...I would imagine that those dreams WERE stressful!!! I am quickly reaching a state where I am telling myself that whatever happens will be ok... and I really do believe that... consciously... I think its the subconsciousness that isn't buying that line... :oD
@ Shelly... yeah, I think the admission/acceptance that there is a problem is always a good sign... at least one isn't in denial about whatever it is causing the stress....
@ Jaime... crazy dreams are good... if they aren't stress-crazy dreams... I should have posted about the dream I had about the blonde the other night... but it didn't cause me stress... other than when I woke up and she wasn't there...
@ Hmm... Bathwater... I DO need to check that detergent to make sure I didn't buy the wrong kind... dayum...
~shoes~
I sometimes have bad dreams. For the most part my dreams are good. No, they are gooooood, like, "finger lickin good" good. But the bad ones stay with me longer.
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