Saturday, April 13, 2013

"I'm Feelin'..."



ALRIGHT...



On my last post to my blog, Cocaine Princess   left this in her comment:
"... nice to see you 're back to yourself..."

 This line in her comment zoomed me back in time a bit... back after the death of my Dad and my divorce, all of which happened within months of each other.  Each event shook me to the core of my Soul...

 When we suffer events, illnesses, whatever, we seem to do whatever is necessary to safe-guard ourselves... to protect ourselves from further damage to our psyches/egos.

 Specifically, Cocaine Princess' comment took me back to an afternoon when I was sitting in my office... my division secretary came into my office... walked over to me and gave me a big hug and told me,
"It's good to have you back..."

 I told her that I hadn't gone any where... to which she replied,
"Oh, yes you did... but you are back to your old self again..."

 When things in my life go amiss... I derail... if there's a train wreck, I tend to 'slow' my Life down... I tend to make my world smaller.  Obviously, I must shut down more than I think I do, and when I let myself get back into the flow of Life, it really must be evident.

 So, I must be kinda returning somewhat to what ~shoes~ is supposed to be...
All in all, 

I'm feelin' alright...

~shoes~
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  1. RobinApril 13, 2013 at 11:43 AM

    This is FANTASTIC. Oh what a feeling...

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    1. Red ShoesApril 14, 2013 at 7:34 PM

      Yep! I've always liked that song... I know that 'Three Dog Night' recorded it... I also think that Dave Mason did.

      It's just a calmness that sets in. Calendar-wise, today is NOT a great day, but things are ok.

      It was just that comment that sent me back to that day...

      ~shoes~

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  2. dixiebelleApril 13, 2013 at 12:18 PM

    I'm glad you're feelin' alright....I think we all tend to shut down and regroup when we are experiencing life beyond capacity. Enjoy your weekend =)

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    1. Red ShoesApril 14, 2013 at 7:36 PM

      Hi there, DixieBelle... I prefer 'slowing Life Down' as opposed to shutting down'...

      Of course, it's probably nothing more than semantics...

      My weekend was pretty ok... how about yours??

      ~shoes~

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    2. dixiebelleApril 15, 2013 at 8:00 AM

      Good morning Shoes. My weekend went very well. I slaved away in the dirt planting and mowing. Only came inside to eat and sleep. I'm glad your weekend was pretty ok!

      Semantics, Shemantics....I think slowing down and shutting down are probably two very differing things when you really think about it =)

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    3. Red ShoesApril 28, 2013 at 8:13 AM

      Re: Semantics... I think you are right, Dixiebelle!

      I like weekends like the one you described. I worked in my yard on Friday afternoon just because severe weather was forecast for Saturday. The bad weather didn't get here until last night, but it was ok. I enjoy great storms!

      ~shoes~

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  3. Introverted ArtApril 13, 2013 at 2:42 PM

    I know exactly where that place is Red... I am glad you are back too.

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    1. Red ShoesApril 14, 2013 at 7:37 PM

      Of all people, Ana... I knew you could relate... :o)

      ~shoes~

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  4. JJApril 13, 2013 at 3:32 PM

    Good for you! Joe Cocker is the best. Listen to him more often for a speedier return.

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    1. Red ShoesApril 14, 2013 at 7:38 PM

      Good afternoon, JJ...

      Re: listening to Joe Cocker, I totally agree!!!

      How's St. Augustine this weekend??

      ~shoes~

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  5. musicwithinyouApril 13, 2013 at 8:43 PM

    That's nice to hear you talk about feeling better :))

    Now only if I can do the same

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    1. Red ShoesApril 14, 2013 at 7:42 PM

      Hey there, Liz... for the most part, I think at times it's just a decision we need/have to make.

      If'n that makes any sense...

      How was your weekend??

      ~shoes~

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  6. Cocaine PrincessApril 13, 2013 at 8:56 PM

    When I saw my name in bold colors on this post and as I continued reading the next few sentences I thought to myself: "uh-oh....did I say the wrong thing? Did I hurt Red's feelings in some way? Oh dear!!"

    It's funny (not in a humorous way of course) how the slightest thing can trigger ones' memory. I've been where you are. It's not so much that we in the physical sense go away as we do emotionally, or as you wrote "shutdown." Then something happens.... we slowly start to emerge from that shell and start returning back to our old self again. Hey, feelin' alright is a helluva lot better than not, my friend. Crank up those tunes and dance!!

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    1. Red ShoesApril 14, 2013 at 7:46 PM

      Hi there, Princess...

      Oh no... of course not! I can't imagine you saying anything to hurt anyone's feelings.

      Yes, we humans are funny creatures, aren't we??

      Turn that mother up!!

      ~shoes~

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  7. Blue GrumpsterApril 14, 2013 at 8:08 PM

    Now that's what a blue man like myself calls g.o.o.d. n.e.w.s. :)

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    1. Blue GrumpsterApril 27, 2013 at 11:03 AM

      ...with a capital G! Enjoy the weekend, Shoes!

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    2. Red ShoesApril 27, 2013 at 4:15 PM

      Thank you, Grumpster... the semester is finally over... now just the crying and bitching over final grades... poor bastards...

      How are you, my friend??

      ~shoes~

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    3. Blue GrumpsterApril 28, 2013 at 5:40 AM

      I'm alright, Shoes. Doing what I do best... teaching, lecturing, suffering. The lot. :)

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  8. YvonneApril 14, 2013 at 10:31 PM

    I envy you right now. I have all but shut down, crumbled to the chaos that is my life presently. But as much as I struggle to "find my way back" to myself, I know in my heart of hearts, that I will be alright. I have to be. -It's comforting and also encouraging to read about others who have gone through a similar path. -Good on you for finding your way back! :)

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    1. Red ShoesApril 27, 2013 at 4:14 PM

      Hi there, Yvonne... getting to that place isn't always without some costs. Many times, in order to get to where one needs to be, one has to make his/her space smaller, and sometimes, just exclude people and things.

      This past week was the last week of classes. Things are getting decidedly better... :oD

      ~shoes~

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  9. Miss Stormy "Gumshoe" MarplesApril 15, 2013 at 12:35 AM

    Sometimes people do not realize how their actions speak louder than their words. When u don't blog--ur blogging friends seem to know something is amiss. When u don't comment on comments, ur blogging friends seem to know something is amiss.

    A few months ago--I did not show up to day job by 8:15 a.m. I'm due in at 8:00 a.m. but normally I am in by 7:40 a.m. They could not reach me by phone. Later on a few coworkers said "We were afraid of what we would find. It is not ur nature to be late nor to answer ur phone." They had sent two detectives to my home to check on me.

    Now, that was very EMBARRASSING for me. However, it is nice to know that people/friends/family care enough to check on u whether it be to literally check on u or ask u if everything is ok etc.

    There are people that do care about others. I know that is hard to believe at times but there are those who do care.

    U have many blogging friends whom care about u. And whether u realize it or not, we can tell if u are having a good day or a bad day just by ur blogging or not blogging.

    I am happy that u are on the upside swing of things. Especially during these last few months. Trainwreck memories and whatnot.

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    1. Red ShoesApril 27, 2013 at 4:10 PM

      Hey you... I've just been busy... so much going on with work, my family, personal crap... but the last week of class is over. Now, it's just dealing with getting final grades posted and such.

      I'm starting to get my 'Traveling Jones' back as well... who knows where I will go...

      ~shoes~

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  10. Miss Stormy "Gumshoe" MarplesApril 15, 2013 at 12:37 AM

    P.S. Cocaine Princess has a special place in my heart. Now that's a gal with a big HEART.

    I cracked up laughing at her last comment to u "Holy Meow". The first laugh I had all weekend.

    She a comedian on the side I'm sure. If not, she needs to be. Beautiful and funny. What a great combination!!!! And I feel fortunate to be lucky enough to run across her blog.

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    1. Red ShoesApril 27, 2013 at 4:11 PM

      Princess is a sweet heart. I always enjoy reading her blog, and seeing what responses she has for her commentors...

      ~shoes~

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  11. BluezyApril 27, 2013 at 12:29 AM

    Great upbeat song. Got to see some live guitar playing today and original songs...wish I had my harmonica. I need to reup on that. Need to make up my mind what key...
    Happy Spring to ya, Shoes.

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    1. Red ShoesApril 27, 2013 at 4:06 PM

      Hi there, Bluezy...

      How are things??

      Harp player, huh? I've tinkered with that a bit... it's not as easy as it looks... especially when one get into cross harp, and all of those other variations... it seems that there is a host of major key harps that can be used for other keys...

      I always liked that version of "It's Alright"... That was from Joe Cocker's "Mad Dogs and Englishmen" album.

      I hope all is well with you.

      ~shoes~

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