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Surprise Surprise Suprise II

Well...

It's been almost a month since I last posted... and I posted about the "Surprise Surprise Surprise..." that fell into my lap.

I told you that I was approached by someone who asked about whether or not I knew that my oldest sister, the one who died about a year and a half ago, was actually the mother of one of the three children of the 'second litter.'

If you are not familiar with the concept of the 'second litter,' my Mom (I think she's my Mom...) and Dad (I think he's my Dad...) had one set of kids (three)... took a break, and then had another set of kids (three)... 

Future telling of this story allowed me the artistic rights to turn the 'sets' into 'litters'...

A Mother Song...

The above tale, as I gave it to you... happened at work. It was someone I have known most of my Life... and has known my family.  The story, as he presented it, makes the oldest of the second litter the 'child of honor'...

This isn't the first time I have heard such a story... There was someone years ago who asked me about such a situation, but that time, the person who brought up the topic was known for creating all kinds of stories... most, with out merit.

In her line of questioning, though, it's the youngest of the second litter...  he was born just about the time that this sister was getting married... so I think that discounts this version of the tale...

Another Momma Song...

So... I got to thinking... who would know?  Someone HAS to know... and then I remembered... there IS someone who might know something!!!

So I went to go see this guy...

I had somewhat rehearsed my lines... how I was going to start the conversation... and I pop the question... he stops... he looks up... thinks... and starts out with the story...

He has time frames.. he has names... he spills the beans...

Everything...

It's coming so fast... so furious... I'm almost taken aback...

and he says... 

"here's when it happened...

I'm not saying who it is...

... but count back...

and you will know."

Wow...

WOW...

WOW...

WOW...

Now... here's the kicker...

The time frame that he supplies... 

the events... the time line...

the baby is me.

He tells me the Father's name... 

and I am thinking... 

I can remember that... 

and write it down later...  

Right?

Right...

I couldn't remember... I was so taken aback by everything that was coming so fast... and focusing on that information... that I didn't commit that to memory.

So a few days later, I go to see this fellow again... and ask for the name... and he looks off... and says... "that's been so long ago... I can't remember names or details... let me think about it and I will get back to you..."

Yeah... 

Right...

I'm thinking... ok.. what's happened??? He was so forth coming with everything... and now he's playing dumb...

This individual called me a few days later to tell me that everything he initially told me was wrong (bullshit)... and that he was talking out of his head (bullshit)... and that I needed to see the original person that started all of this and tell him to mind his business...

He did let it slip that he had talked to another family member since we talked... and evidently he was told to shut up... and to stay out of it.  There is something that the older ones don't want the younger ones to know...

The older ones... first litter survivors... know the truth...

So I have my work cut out for me... 

I want to know...

I need to know...

There are some people with whom I have shared this story...

and some of their thoughts are... 'why does it matter?'

Well... it just does...

I'm sure all families have their secrets...

At times, I think I have done an ok job of keeping things

together, considering all of the other things happening 

in the under currents.

Things are going to be ok...

I am going to be ok...

Afterall... 

How does that one song go??

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

I know...

another Mother song...

~shoes~